....Jonathan. I'm not very good at saying this sort of thing, but I worry about you. I...care about you. So don't do anything that you will regret later. I can't feel regret, but you still do. So don't push yourself. And ask for help if you need it.
And know, no matter what you choose to do, I'm on your side. Not Nissen's. Not the creator's. Yours.
[No. No, don't do this. Jon can feel the tug at his heartstrings, dragging him out of the mindset of the Archivist, back toward the things he's been trying to make himself set aside. Alessandro isn't the person he would have expected this from, but maybe he should have.
Christ...]
I know. I know. I care about you, too. If anything happens to you or to Ava, I don't know what I'll do. I don't think I could. I don't know.
[This is why he stays away from people. This is why he tries not to get close. Because they all die horribly. Martin... Alessandro might be next. Ava, too. Jon just wants the man somewhere safe, somewhere that he can Watch him.]
I'm on your side. I'm on your side, too. Please make it through. Please.
Don't worry about me. Do what you need to do. And know that after, I will still be on your side. I've no room to judge anything you do.
And just remember. You already Know. My fate lays on the other side of that door. I'll make this through and so do you. And if I find Martin, I will bring him back to you. I will walk through the Lonely to grab him if I have to.
[Whatever he does. But now Jon's thinking about what he's been doing, running around and compelling people. Maybe not for Statements, but for information. Dragging out secrets and telling them the horrible things, reminding them of their sins. Is this what Martin would want? Even for revenge, would he want Jon doing this? Maybe... maybe he should just stick to scaring people away from the Institute, stick to keeping the people he has locked down in the Archives now fed and safe. Even when they're terrified and screaming to be let out, at least they're safe where he can Watch them.]
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Date: 2019-10-07 01:31 am (UTC)....Jonathan. I'm not very good at saying this sort of thing, but I worry about you. I...care about you. So don't do anything that you will regret later. I can't feel regret, but you still do. So don't push yourself. And ask for help if you need it.
And know, no matter what you choose to do, I'm on your side. Not Nissen's. Not the creator's. Yours.
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Date: 2019-10-07 01:41 am (UTC)Christ...]
I know.
I know.
I care about you, too.
If anything happens to you or to Ava, I don't know what I'll do.
I don't think I could.
I don't know.
[This is why he stays away from people. This is why he tries not to get close. Because they all die horribly. Martin... Alessandro might be next. Ava, too. Jon just wants the man somewhere safe, somewhere that he can Watch him.]
I'm on your side.
I'm on your side, too.
Please make it through. Please.
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Date: 2019-10-07 02:30 am (UTC)Don't worry about me. Do what you need to do. And know that after, I will still be on your side. I've no room to judge anything you do.
And just remember. You already Know. My fate lays on the other side of that door. I'll make this through and so do you. And if I find Martin, I will bring him back to you. I will walk through the Lonely to grab him if I have to.
If I see him, I will bring him home.
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Date: 2019-10-07 02:50 am (UTC)Thank you.
I'll let you know if I find him, too.
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Date: 2019-10-07 06:05 pm (UTC)Thank you for that.
If you find him first, be sure to give him a hug and tell him it's from me. And should I find him, I'll give him the same, from you.
I'll see you later, Jonathan. The hunt calls.